TWENTY-ONE

Days Later' was a terrible movie.

i like this.

i'm content.

but if only i didn't have to go away, things would be much better.

D=

TWENTY

weeks it's been since i stepped out onto this field.

and not every moment has been fun, exciting, content,

but neither have i regretted any of them.

and because all too often i forget to thank,

and my pride staunches my true feelings,

thank you.

to the singular one that God has loved me enough to place into my life:

thank you for

accepting all about me without question; listening; becoming that solid wall for me; bearing my burdens with me; your honesty; telling me your mind; letting me hear your doubts, your concerns, your fears; running to my aid at a single word; dealing with my difficult traits; crying with me; laughing with me; sharing in my emotions;

for all of those.

i can never express the amount of gratitude i feel, the amount i want to show.

my ineptitude embarrasses me and shames me,

but you look past even that.

and because you do

i promise

to never hit you with any toothbrush ever again.

ever.

♥

NINETEEN

years and counting.

often, I wonder what it is that brings me to places like these.

often, I wonder what it is that leads me to think thoughts like these.

often, I wonder what it is that guides me to cherish moments like these.

and often, all too often, I forget to be thankful for it.

the hardships come and I constantly pray, I constantly look, I constantly work for the solutions to right the wrongs, to meet those ends.

those solutions come, and I forget all else. I forget my background, my past, the wrinkles I have overcome. Instead, I think not of the future, but of the present.

I lived only for the present.

until that one day comes, where that mindset finally shows its consequences.

and I start this vicious cycle over again. and over again. and over again.

to what end will I have to go in order to understand?

to where will I have to find myself before I can fully comprehend the error of my ways?

what will I have to give up, who will I have to lose, how much of my pride will I have to damage before I can finally take those reins and regain control of my past, my present, and my future?

however, no matter how much I lose, no matter how much I hurt,

I want to hold onto my pride: the one thing that can save me from this ailing world,

and the one thing that will ultimately be my ticket to those pits of fire we all fear.

EIGHTEEN

[or four] weeks i'll have to save up for this beauty =]



Sharp WX-t92

isn't it sexy? sigh~

SEVENTEEN

original tracks. [SIXTEEN] is amazing.

당신의 조각들

Dedicated to you

당신의 눈동자 내 생의 첫 거울 그 속에
맑았던 내 모습 다시 닮아 주고파
거대한 은하수조차 무색하게 만들던
당신의 쌍둥이 별 내 슬픔조차
대신 흘려줬던 여울 그속에 많았던 그 눈물
다시 담아주고파 그 두 눈 속에 숨고자했어
당신이 세상이던 작은 시절 당신의 두 손
내 생의 첫 저울 세상이 준 거짓과
진실의 무게를 재주곤 그 가르침은
뼈더미 날개에 다는 깃털 기억해 두손과 시간도
얼었던 겨울 당신과 만든 눈사람
찬 바람속에 그 종소리가 다시 듣고파 따뜻하게
당신의 두손을 잡은 시절

당신의 눈
당신의 손
영원히 당신의 눈을 바라보며
손을 쥐고 싶어
벌써 시간을 되돌리고 싶어
You know I do
I do love you
지쳐가는 모습도
작아져가는 그대 뒷모습도
사랑해요
I do love you
Every litte piece of you
Every little piece of you
사랑해요

때로는 시간을 다스려 손에 가지고파
그대가 내가 될 수 있게 보내 날리고파
난 그대 청춘에 그 봄의 노래 안기고파
나 역시 어리던 당신의 볼을 만지고파
그대 인생의 절반을 갈라 날 위해 살았고
남은 인생의 전부를 또 나를 위해 살아도
하찮은 내가 줄 수 있는 거라곤
한 평생 그대가 바라고 비는 성한 몸
언제까지나 받고 받아 이제는 건네고 싶은데
받은 건 모두 날 위해 쌓아 멋내고 쉬는게
그리고 어려워서 모두 거절할까
아직도 일에 지쳐 사는 건 또 병되고 싫은데
그대 옷자락의 묵은 때보다 더
검은 내 죄로 그대 머리에는 눈이 내려
가슴을 시리게 만들어 내 숨이 죄여
오늘도 이별의 하루가 지나
꿈이 되면 그대를 찾아갈래요
그대를 따라갈래요 당신의 발자국에 맞춰
내가 살아갈래요 얼마남지도 않은
우리 둘의 모래 시계 행복의 사막
그 안에서 우리 오래 쉬게

Every little piece of you
Every little piece of you
Every little piece of you
Every little piece of you

사랑해요
You know I do
I do love you
지쳐가는 모습도
작아져가는 그대 뒷모습도

당신의 눈
당신의 손
영원히 당신의 눈을 바라보며
손을 쥐고 싶어
벌써 시간을 되돌리고 싶어

Dedicated to you

Your eyes are the first mirror of my existence.
I see the reflection of my youth.
I want to be that again for you
The gigantic galaxy and your twin stars make me feel so ashamed.
The river flows in the place of my sadness
I want to refill your tears in the eyes where I slept and hid
During that brief time when you were my world
Your two hands are the first scales of justice.
The lies of the world balanced against the weight of the truth
That teaching is a graveyard
The feathers stuck on the wings
Remember the winter where
Both time and our hands froze
The snowman we made together
I want to hear the bells we heard in the cold wind
The times I held your hands to keep them warm
Your eyes
Your hands
I want to look in your eyes forever and hold your hands
I already want to turn back time
You know I do
I do you love you
Your tired image
Your retreating silhouette
I love you
I do love you
Every little piece of you
Every little piece of you
I love you

Sometimes I want to touch time and grasp it in my hands
So that you can be with me
I want to send it flying
I want to hold the song of Spring I heard during the joy of my youth
I really was young
I want to touch your cheeks
You cut your life in two and lived for me
And with the remaining half of your life
Even if you live for me again
The things that someone as insignificant as myself can do
The things you want and desire for eternity
A spirited body
For ever you accepted
Now I want to take back
Everything you get for me
You collect, showed it off and counted
And then for fear of rejection you
Work harder, tired of living
I dont want to be that illness
Like the dirt stuck on the train of your clothes
My dark sins fall on your head like snow
It makes my heart cold
My breathing becomes difficult
Another day passes without you
When dreams come I want to go find you
I want to follow you
Matching your footsteps
I want to live
In our hourglass where there is not much time left
A desert of happiness
So we can rest there for a long time
every little piece of you
every little piece of you
every little piece of you
every little piece of you
I love you

You know I do
I do love you
Your tired image
Your retreating silhouette
Your eyes
Your hands
I want to breathe looking into your eyes forever
I want to turn back time already

>>다블로 오빠만 사랑해요 ♥