ONE TWELVE

I like New Year's as much as the next person
I understand it's a signal for change
but to think that everyone will change is a load of shit
those resolutions I make every year
I doubt I've ever kept any one of them
just because I realize how useless they really are
and it only takes me a couple weeks into the new year

2010 though
will be a year of plans
because I have one whole year
to plan and decide
and then prepare
for Milan, Italy

whether in 2011 or 2012
I'm going
that's the only promise I'll make to myself this year
to not let any worries block me from going
because this is one opportunity I will never again receive
I will work past the financial barriers
and the culture barriers
and the language barriers

DA - I'll be there.

ONE ELEVEN

i nearly forgot D:

1 more month, love

as of yesterday

happy 23rd ♥

ONE TEN

finals are OVER.
as of last week

this week is cramming shopping time
relaxation please

we want to watch Rurouni Kenshin
i want mine back

i tried a while back
but i'm never doing that again
why?
because their egos = bigger than the fucking universe
what the hell do you have
that you think you are that great?
go ahead and name one
because i can think of
ZERO

fuck it
i'll steal that shit back
no worries

man i really want to watch it

ONE OH NINE

I don't remember what time I was aiming for
but it was definitely not 4:57 am.
I hate finals week.
I hate Microsoft Word more, though.

burn in hell, you piece of shit program.
burn in fucking hell.

ONE OH EIGHT

I'm so lucky :)

I don't think I stop to think often enough
about how blessed I am
and the gifts I've received from God.

I have
a caring, loving family
the best friend a girl could ask for: her sister
the most amazing friend[s] - at work & at school
an extraordinary boyfriend - perfect in every way

it is only because of them that I am able to face the world
every morning I get up
and am able to sleep soundly in my bed at night
knowing they'll be there if I need them.

and I?
I hope they feel the same way towards me -
that no matter what, I will be there
ready to face anything
to take on anything for them
because that is my promise.

no matter how far we may be
no physical distance can truly separate us.

thanks for always being there
I love all of you

ONE OH SEVEN

I think the thing I hate most about society
is the amount of worth we put on a name.

Take the ugliest thing you can find
tack on a designer brand
and people will go nuts over it
no matter how much it costs.

All those huge department stores that have sales all the time?
Well all the ugly 'designer' label things that were too ugly to sell full price
they knock of 50%, 60%
and suddenly the whole area scrambles to pick one up
just for the brand's name.

But that's not the worst part.
Sure, those things were cheaper than retail price.
But the original price was still relatively expensive.
We're talking anywhere from $300 - $1000.

What happens then, when you take something that is 'designer'
and only retails for around $50 - $70
and then stick it on the sale rack?

I'll show you what happens.
Things like this:



Possibly the ugliest pair of 'flip-flops' designed by human hands.
What's that you say? You don't like the color?
Oh, no worries - it comes in plenty of others:



Oh, these are not 'wedge-y' enough for you?
Don't even worry - there are taller ones:



And once again, in many different colors and patterns for you to choose from.





Wait, but it's not summer anymore!
Oh where will I wear these?
Not to worry, there are indoor ones as well:


I absolutely abhor these abominations people buy in a frenzy.
I would bet my life savings if these hadn't had a 'Juicy Couture' label affixed to the side
they would have never taken flight.

ONE OH SIX

things on my wish list this year

but all I need is a new camera

as much as I love mine
and all the places we've been together
the things we've seen and documented
it's dying on me.

the battery takes 3+ hours to charge
and lasts close to 20 minutes for pictures
10 on video
before it completely shuts off and hibernates

it requires a dock to plug into anything
its impossible to charge through my laptop
and only through outlets
but needs a separate cord
so I constantly have to have 2 cords + dock
in order for it to work at all

its missing a chunk out of the bottom corner
from god knows when
and when I open the latch to take out the battery
it comes flying out along with the SD card
-.-
I've only had it for 3 years
but maybe that's a long life for a camera

with my art photography class next quarter
I don't think I'll be able to work through it
with this camera

maybe it was because I never named it...

***

valpicon bather
please magically finish yourself during the night
while I sleep tucked away
in my warm cozy soft bed

***

it's going to be a long night, world



love,
kimnhi

ONE OH FIVE

pairs, seriously.

I did here what I promised in my previous
I tried, I promise
but it didn't quite fit
and they had to be separated anyway


boots, pt. 1


pumps, pt. 1


flats, pt.1

why pt. 1 you ask?
that's cause those are the shoes I keep at my apt
then there are the ones I keep at home, too


only, I didn't want to go hunt up all of them
and my sneakers + sandals
they will be on a future post

there just isn't enough space for all my shoes
kimanh tells me I can only bring up as many
as can fit in the shoe cabinet
how do I fit them all, you ask?

like this:


yay! they all fit :)

ONE OH FOUR

my first thought:
your english
sucks
just thought you should know

my business is mine
I don't meddle
I don't judge
I don't announce
I think to myself
"settling, are you now?"
but I don't snicker or sneer
proclaim or criticize
and neither should you

our lives have been cruising along just fine
no need for reminiscence
or for past grievances

let's keep it that way

and for the record-
I know more than you think I do

ONE OH THREE

fuckk.

I found the source of my obsession.
its ViVi
I see the cute outfits they wear
the way they dress things up
and I want them
so bad
so I buy

my latest shoes purchases:



and



I almost bought these too
good thing they didn't have my size

I should upload a picture with all my shoes
grouped together like a school gathering
they might all fit in

ONE OH TWO

a little behind...

ViVi Nov '09






***

MATERIALS LIST:

x long chain/ribbon phone lanyard




- studded tights



- ribbon laces for oxfords
- bow on clasped chain
- lace skirt



- lace & pearl bow headband



***

i went into Nordstrom's to look for:



Report 'Britt' Bootie
the smallest they had was a 6



so i ended up getting these Steve Madden booties instead
in a 5.5 which worked out alright

one day, these:


will come to me
and i will love them.
Barney's New York: $550

***

Black Friday
shopping = hell
no electronics for me this year

i started at other places

DT Seattle
h&m: 5am
UO: 5am

ONE OH ONE

the start of a new batch

and a new phase of life

and maybe of munny :)



he's been incomplete for so long

sigh...

ONE HUNDRED

tools of my trade.

charcoal + eraser



acrylic + brush



graphite



wire

NINETY-NINE

NO.

I just found out I have to graduate by Autumn '10.
as in its non-negotiable
total time at UW = 3 years 1 quarter
this blows
I like college-
the atmosphere
the instructors
[some of] the students


I don't wanna leave UW yet
but I wanna go to grad school elsewhere
or maybe I should work first
wait. no.
I'm going directly to grad school.
no questions.

NINETY-EIGHT

힘들죠?

왜요?

아, 알아~

미안에.

NINETY-SEVEN

ftw
STUPIDx2

NINETY-SIX

STUPID.

NINETY-FIVE

i draw

when i wake up
only because
i procrastinate



i think i like rubens best

leg/foot today and wednesday

NINETY-FOUR

as promised
this is what i do:


master study 1


master study 2


hand/arm study 1

once i get my work back
i'll be sure to put it up as well

NINETY-THREE

happy 21st, love <3

i meant to have Kratos done by today
sorry i couldn't :(

maybe by 1.10?






hippo + ducky = happiness <3

NINETY-TWO

momo-chan~

i miss you <3




mt. fuji-kun~

i want you <3


oh plushies :)

NINETY-ONE

tracks.

and still amazing :)

NINETY

thousand things to do
and no time to do itt...

-master study
-sketches
-torso 1, 2, 3
-paper topic
-lee essay
-feminist art readings
-work
-social fucking obligations

gahh...
please shoot me now.

which.
i can't find my camera dock
T.T
i need it in my life.

EIGHTY-NINE

fake people piss me off.

don't tell me one thing
and then go do another.

you 'social butterflies'
who want to be in with every crowd
will do everything to please everyone
are fake.

F-A-K-E fake.
F-U-C-K fake.

at least i'll tell you i don't like you.
at least i'll be honest about it
and instead of gossiping around
asking others what they think
you'll know for sure
that i hate your fucking guts.
so rest easy
because if it seems as though i dislike you
it's 'cause i probably do.

so go on your merry little way
acting like the world will revolve around you
and the shit you want

but leave me the fuck alone.
i don't want anything to do with you.
period.

EIGHTY-EIGHT

MASTER STUDY -- 3 HOURS
PORTRAIT 1 ------ 3 HOURS
+ PORTRAIT 2 --- 2 HOURS
----------------------------------------
WEEK 1 = 8 HOURS

that's a pretty darn good time for me :)

on the other hand
naked old wrinkly models
are not so good for Tina.

let's do better next week, shall we?

love,
KimNhi

EIGHTY-SEVEN

master studies....

bleghh.

one a week for ten quarter weeks = 10 studies

how much time you ask?

let's see here:

30% completed (aka very bare outline) = 1 hour (record time for kimnhi, might i add)



when i finish it, i'll post the original along with the finished

maybe then i won't be such an utter failure
really, i should learn to draw faster
i refine it too early in the process >.<

for example, let's take my friend Bobby here:



why hello Bobby!!
how nice to see you again-
wait, what's that you say?
you're missing some teeth?

oh right.
'cause I take too fucking slow in a 3 hour studio class,
i never finished poor Bobby's teeth
and now, he shall be teethless :(

okay. my goal for this quarter:

DRAW FASTER (but still very detailed and observant)
BUT FASTER.

because one day, I will be able to give Bobby his teeth on time :D

take care :)
-kimnhi

EIGHTY-FIVE

times i heard that phrase.

'is it really that hard?'

i think it is.

and i feel for you
i really do.

i'm sorry to say
but it won't last-
i'm hoping it won't.
and even if it did
i will not allow it to.

nhiều lúc
nhi
muốn giúp
nhưng không biết làm gì

và

nhiều lúc
nhi
muốn nói lời
an ủi
nhưng không biết lời

xin lỗi
tuy nhi không phải người phạm

₫ừng cố nữa, nhé?
sẽ ₫au thôi


em thương,
nhi

EIGHTY-FOUR

days since this started, I swear

I can't sleep.

insomnia
why do you plague me now?
what the hell did i ever do to you?
you stupid bitter bitch

my sleeping schedule was so regular
for a while
what a short, sweet while
even without solid rest
i still made it in the morning
turned my face to the sweet sunlight
that poured in abundance

how short lived it was
now all that greets me when i wake
is the dreary, rain drenched sky
purpling over with bruises

at least when the seasons change
to a permanent autumn
i will be able to anticipate what will come next
and there will be no more teasing breaks of sunshine
at least i will know

sleep
when will you come
to take me away?

EIGHTY-THREE

i should honor that with a total of 83 spankin' pictures =)

jaykay.
like I would put 83 up here
consider these 11 best :)
and one special one
is in the making
just for you
love



wanna guess?